smoking

not sure what have trigger me from quiting smoking to continue doing so
it is something i wanted to stop for a long time
I'm still here smoking my lungs out
i wish i can stand up to the pressure i have now
rather smoking
i tell my mom how much i love my life but i am slowly killing myself
sometimes i think that i wanted to live long
but sometimes it hurts so much that i don't know when that day will come
but for sure i don't want to die alone and single
i'm such a dork