new

well i knew this bunch of new friends when meet danny during chinese new year
there is ray,brendon,edwin and steve at first
latter on there is vincent, k'veron, kenny, fry, ken son, louis,jimmy,branan, duncan,another danny, and many more other guys
i was fun to knew them
they bring me a lot of laughter and things like that

i was pretty happy and stuff went clubbing a few times and most of the time we like to hang out in lost world

that is the best thing ever happened to me lately

cry

i really wanted to cry
but i can't
maybe i am too strong
but finally i did
i wanted her to be there for me when i cry but she did not
so i have to go through it alone
so what
i am so used to it
i cry myself to bed last time
when my dad don't love me at all
i told myself it is ok
when it comes to love
what a big deal about it
when it comes to work
if you are used to it
there is nothing we can do about it but just have to deal with it
so what i am sad but no one will pity me

i like to tell myself to move on
i can do
i have doing it for so long so what

down

i am really down lately
i meant really down
there is a few times i try to hit something but it doesn't hurt at all
they said that is really painful
from
down
to
down
to
freaking down
to damn down
till
i don't feel like doing anything thing
i don't even feel like going out
what i enjoy doing
seems like a responsibility
oh
go away
i wanted to leave
but i can't all for the sake of
MONEY

not yours

they said what is not yours
it will never be yours
so there is nothing we can do about it
love is not what we can't choose
love can fade just like you throwing a nice shirt into bleach
so there is nothing me can do about it
as love is about two person
we can force her to love you

2/28

i am so tired

i have never stop complaining about this matter

no matter what happened i am just tired of it

am i a person that gave up easily or i am just the type of person that can't do the same thing over and over again

i am tired at work + home + life + friends and so on